I hope that you will read my blog one day again. sigh i guess you are not missing me anymore :( i wish i can sing halo to you. i miss you so much. i hope that you will remember every moment together with you. :( remember those walls i built well baby they are tumbling down :(

Sigh i miss you so much. Everytime when i listen to a sad song you are the first person i think of. I wish can sing to you again but i guess its impossible anymore i just hope that theres is still miracle between me and you. Some say love, it is a river that drowns the tender reed. Some say love, it is a razor that leaves your soul to bleed.

Sigh hope that you are doing fine. I wonder if you will ever read this blog again i doubt so. i miss you so much i hope that you can come back and used to be like last time i really miss everything about you. i hope that things will change. i miss you so much :(.

Crying the whole day :( you told me everything was just an illusion what you said issit just to avoid me. Our relationship just ended like this I never thought that we would be like this. I wish that you aren't like this but everytime I try you don't give me the appreciation. I did all I can do but nothing wasn't good enough. I really never know that we would lost this relationship. Sigh. It's all because of a word misunderstanding hope that you will know the truth. :(

Sigh everything with you is over i wish i could do something to save this relationship but whenever i tries it doesn't works. i try so hard that if leaving you was a choice that i could have but i can't i really can't i guessed its meant to be this way.

Day after day its drifting away slowly, its like we might become stranger again. i hate this feeling i don't want you to drift away from me. all i can do is try to chat with you but its hard because i get all those reply but even tho i am still not giving up because i don't want to and i want you. sigh hope things will get better.

Today you taught me the basic japanese and i was really happy because  we are talking really very close its like the last time when we always chat whole night, i tot you will be talking to me like it was but when i asked another question you replied me ... and stuff i was still sad :/ sigh i know i chose this path isn't easy but i know i am still going on because i know one day we will be together. i always think of that day to come. i just hope that no one can get close to you again.

Today was quite a nice day for me because you feel happy.. i wanted to chat with you but i am scared i will ruin your mood. so i didnt. I hope that as long as you are happy even i am not the reason. i will always feel happy and will always be there for you if you need me. i will always stay by your side so whenever anything happen i can be the first one to help you

Yesterday i tot you forgave me already because u replied me like some question then suddenly when i sent u 3 texted and you tot i was spamming so i guessed you are going to be angry on me again. sigh i wasted that opportunity again. i wonder when will my next chance come. i really miss you alot. but i know its impossible because i am not the guy that used to be the one for you already. :/ hais.

Feeling sad because you was not recovering fully yet still abit uncomfortable yet i can't do anything. Hope you will get well tomorrow you need sleep and rest more you always stay up late at night and do your hw not good for health :/ i miss you so much rest well girl..

Yesterday was worried about you because you are not feeling well and your finger is in pain i cant do anything :( just can only send a message and ask you to careful and takecare i wish i was there so that you wont be so careless. i only want to care for you as a friend. i just want to amend my mistake that i hurt you. i hope that you can forgive me again.

Sigh this is really very painful for me i can't moved on. everytime whenever i first on my hp or computer the first thing i will do is to see your twitter to see if anything is okay for you. its really hard for me to accept what things are now like. :( i miss you so much. but i doubt nothing is changeable now.. sorrow...

Today feeling so sorrow again. Last time and now so much different whenever i send u a msg you just reply me with k aww but nvm because i know that as long as you reply and see it i am okay with it. It makes me so hard to accept this sutuation right now. I can't let you go because my heart wont let me :/ i wanted so much to be with you but i dont know if i have the chance again hopefully i will. I wish i could have the courage to prove you that i am really sorry its only on the day when i see you again. I will cherish that chance.

This is the only place i can say what i am feeling right now. today was really a bad day for me everything changed. i really dont know how i am just feeling very afraid. why do people still have to break my heart even tho all i did was doing what i wanted. i know i am not a good talker but i tried everything to change but still i was getting cold msg and text do you know if someone put efforts on you and you reply those cold text its really painful. sigh.

Moody and sorrow again. I wish i could hide the feelings that i have but everytime i hide i will think of it. I want to be happy again as long as you are happy then i will feel happy. i always do things that i know i should not idk why sigh i just really wan to change myself. :/

Moody and sorrow yesterday i was thinking what could we have been doing if we were together will we last long will we always stay in love with each other will we be like this forever will we keep this moment like this ? If only this happens ~ i miss you so much

Today its was raining so heavily at that moment i felt so cold and sorrow. I realize it was raining for the past fews days issit because of me and you are like this thats why its raining ?. I am really sorry for the this i hurted you but i want to stay with you at your side forever even as a friend. I want to do something that will make you happy as long as you are happy i feel happy. I am still trying to be the time it used to i hope everything will be fine time will heals everything. i hope so :/

Day 787,
Today was quite a fine day for me everything was okay except for you. :/ i am still trying to get close to you again.. right now im scared if i had say the wrong words or what so i am trying to think before i chat. hoping to see you again soon. yea and i was happy because you chatted with me as normal like last time. thats all cya all.

Day 1.-
Today after school i went straight home because i wanted to rush my level in maplestory. After that when i was doing this party quest with some online players i met this girl ign called vaneikohx3 so after the whole party quest finished i went to find her and whisper to see if she has a boyfriend and she whispered me she doesn't have one so i was like maybe i can get a chance to be with her because i have this feeling when i first saw her. its time to sleep hope that she wont reject me !


Day 2-
 After my school i quickly went back home to on maplestory because i decided to ask her if i could be her boyfriend. I was so scared she would reject me but in the end i was so happy because she accepted me and i was like jumping around lol. :x.. wonder will i be with her forever time to sleep !

Day 3. -
I was heading to school, i kept thinking about the girl i miss her so much till i wanted to skip school and head back just to wait for her in maple to get online but end up i didn't cus i can't skip school. so after my school i quickly rush back home again ! i didn't think to bath because i just went straight to on my computer to on maple then i saw her online so i chat with her to know her more.. i miss her so much.. hope she will be sleeping fine.. guess its time to sleep .



Day 4 -
Today when i woke up the first person i think was her and i dreamt that i met her in real life and i was like hugging her because she was so beautiful. after that i dreamt that me and her went to a playground to play the swing so i asked her to sit on the swing so i was pushing her back to make her swing go higher. haha this dream is so lovely hope i will never wake up from my dream. sleep time night.



Day 5. -

Today so stress i didnt managed to finished up my homework in time get scolded by teacher :/ meanwhile i was thinking that time would pass quickly so i could go back and see her.. after school ended i went back to see her. Everytime i get to see her i feel so happy it really makes my day. Well thats all for today good night.



Day 6 -

Today in maple i was chatting with her i have this feeling this feeling feels like i wish that our conversation will never ends because she really cares for me alot and really a very sweet girl. So i asked her for her number so i could text her looking forward to text her from now onwards ! good night.

Day 7 -
I was so happy today because i can finally text with her without playing maple so i was like texting the whole day even when i am in school. haha our conversation is never ending i was like keep asking her lots lots of things i really enjoyable talking to her.. night !

Day 8 - 

Today when i woke up i was thinking that what if my bills come and my parents saw it. i was so scared but still i was like keep reminding myself nvm everything its okay my parents is going to understand me because if you love someone it doesnt matter what cost it as long as you do it. <3 night i miss you so much.

Day 9 -
 Today while playing maple i asked her if she wants any items she replied no it's okay and i was like nvm just take it and she keeps denying so i was like :( i was wondering if she doesn't likes to receive gifts but i understand that shes a nice girl because shes not a greedy girl sigh sorry for forcing you girl.. night..


Day 10- 11 sept
Time flies i am with her for almost 2 weeks already.. :X hoping to last long with her.. making her smile and laugh makes me happy too. hope that you are missing me everyday like i missed you :S night.....


Day 11 -
Today something bad happen my bill came and my mother was asking me why did i texted a msia number so i tell her everything and she told me not to text again so i was saying no i can't i have too because i really love her i told my mother to be more reasonable so i argue with her after that she just walked away and told me if you do it again i will deactivate your line. sigh i don't want this to happen hope everything will be okay tmr :(

Day 12-

Today i was so scared that if i see my mother again will she scold or nag me again so i quickly ran to school without telling her im going off. sigh another moody day for me i miss you :(

Day 13-

Our relationship is getting more fonder its because everytime i talks or chat with you my mind will never stop. i was like keep on chatting and chatting so that we can never stop but somehow we need to rest and recharge ourself i hope humans dont have to sleep so that i can chat with you forever ! <3 missing you girl.


Day 355
Tomorrow is the day i can finally see you. i text you i am not sleeping but you asked me to go sleep because ltr when i reached there what if i faint then i say cus i scared i cant wake up so you said nvm i will wake you up tmr gogogo sleep i was like lolx silly girl >< haha. night girl. can't wait for tmr..


Day 356
Today was the day i see you i was really very unhappy :( because i didnt get to chat with you because i was so shy i was walking around and thinking what are you thinking.. i regretted i didnt chat with you but i remembered i walked with you side by side at that moment i tot i could have hold your hands but i didnt because i was too shy. :( but i managed to pass you the present i hope you like it girl. take care... i miss you so much.

Day 357
Today was the saddest saddest moment in my whole life i regretted so much things i even caused trouble for you and your brother i was really stupid why didnt i hug you. and i was thinking of that moment when i ran and asked your dad to calm down and your dad was scolding me so i was like chasing after him just to see you and idk this moment i was holding the lift door not to let it close for like a few mins after that your father was taking out his knife and suddenly idk why the lift suddenly close :( i knew that moment everything is over because both of us can't chat anymore. hais..

Day 358

Today is the day i will be heading back to singapore. I was crying in the bus and texting you saying if you are okay and i even called your brother and ask your brother told me everything is okay. hais so i was like texting and texting and you didnt reply i know you have your reason so i waited and waited hoping that one day i will see your message again.

Eventually days passed so slow i was thinking about you the whole day and texting you every single day just to show you that i am okay here the memories when i am with you is really unforgettable its really the best memories i had together with you. you are the first girl that makes my memories so beautiful and unforgettable i wish this moment would never end. until one day you begin to start texting me saying that you are okay so i was texting and texting hoping you are really doing okay. Till that day 26 april 2010 is the day we broke up :( i feel so hurt that moment i wish that i could run way from this world because this is so painful for me. but i know you had your reason for doing this and you even asked if i could have wait for you and without hesitation i said yes i will and i will never break the promises i had with you. so after days past i was just a friend to you so i couldn't cross the line because we are just friends but idk why i have this feeling saying that i wanted to care and cross the line because i am afraid of losing you to another guy. after that i rmb one day i asked you if i could see you again and this story begins its about a girl name kl i really didnt know about her because all i know that she was nice and helping me to patch up with ee li , and i asked if i could go kl to see you again and i dont know what happen i forget the part when someone told me that i could go and see her again so i went to kl and see ee li when i reached kl i called kl but she didnt picked up and i was waiting and waiting walking around the shopping mall thinking about you i was thinking if you really wanted to see me then suddenly kl msg say that she didnt picked up cus she was swimming with you and sl and she told me that she had to go home because she can';t stay for too long so i said what about ee li and she told me to find sl and tell her so i called sl. and sl was saying that if i want to see ee li come to the place we used to eat so i went to that restaurant called sushi king so i waited outside i didnt get to see so i kept on waiting until i saw jon running so i tot what happen so i begin to search for you but i didnt get to so i called ee li and one guy listen i just asked if she was with ee li and he said no i called the wrong number so i was like okay. then after that i was thinking why did you guys run away from me. at that moment i was down and sad so me and my friend went back to the hotel to call kl and ask if she could pass the present that i bought for you she said cant so i was begging but she was like cannot because if her parents found out she will be dead. so i didnt forced her i stopped and went to rest. The trip was really down to drain but i didnt blamed you because i know that you had your own reason for not seeing me. so the next day i went home with all the unhappy stuff.days goes day by day.. Everything changed for me because i regretted so many things that i didnt do with you when i had the chances. All the efforts and things i gave to you was all beyond my limit. its really because of you i did all those things for you because i really cherish and appreciate what you gave me did for me too. I will never forget the memories i had with you.

Till now i have to let you go because about kl.. we have been arguing the past few days because of her. i really hates it but i dont like this feeling when you said i love her when its not even the truth i never blamed you i know because you had your own reason for doing that so after this incident happens things started to changes your feeling for me slowly faded because everytime when we argue there will be this guy cheering you up and after this incident you were like very cold towards me even sometimes when i texted you first you could have seen my text but you replied his text and went to do your stuff and then replying me again. at that moment i knew that i wasn't important to you anymore because he was better than me so i asked you if you will be happy if i leave you just to be with him so you said you will so i let you go but to be honest i let you go because i wanted you to be happy but i always hoping that you will asked me to stay but you didn't at that moment i know everything is over for us we can only be friends. so days goes day by day again our message our conversation is fading.. you were like ignoring my text... i already let you go and said why can't we be friends why do you have to be so cruel to me. i keep telling myself everything you did to me was because you have your own reason. till now what i did for you was because you are always my everything. i hope that this memories will be keep in my heart forever till the day i leave you. i hope you will read this message and not cry because i know you have found someone that can make you happy than me. Dear ee li you were always the best and you really meant everything to me i wish i could have met another girl like you but its impossible no one can give what you gave me i appreciate everything when i am with you i hope that you will forget about me and move on its not worth to cry for me because i am not worth your tears. please dont shed a single tears okay ? i love you girl.. take care when i am not with you. i miss you and love you. What you gave was something that no one could never give me. You will always stay in my heart forever. <3

I wish that one day you would understand everything i did was all my efforts and i hope to be with you and cherished you again . I guess i dont have this chance again. I wish nothing but the best for you. Thanks for everything you gave me. -Hug- - Kiss on your forehead-

I will always wait for you.
~Makiyoo <3