Crying the whole day :( you told me everything was just an illusion what you said issit just to avoid me. Our relationship just ended like this I never thought that we would be like this. I wish that you aren't like this but everytime I try you don't give me the appreciation. I did all I can do but nothing wasn't good enough. I really never know that we would lost this relationship. Sigh. It's all because of a word misunderstanding hope that you will know the truth. :(

Sigh everything with you is over i wish i could do something to save this relationship but whenever i tries it doesn't works. i try so hard that if leaving you was a choice that i could have but i can't i really can't i guessed its meant to be this way.

Day after day its drifting away slowly, its like we might become stranger again. i hate this feeling i don't want you to drift away from me. all i can do is try to chat with you but its hard because i get all those reply but even tho i am still not giving up because i don't want to and i want you. sigh hope things will get better.

Today you taught me the basic japanese and i was really happy because  we are talking really very close its like the last time when we always chat whole night, i tot you will be talking to me like it was but when i asked another question you replied me ... and stuff i was still sad :/ sigh i know i chose this path isn't easy but i know i am still going on because i know one day we will be together. i always think of that day to come. i just hope that no one can get close to you again.

Today was quite a nice day for me because you feel happy.. i wanted to chat with you but i am scared i will ruin your mood. so i didnt. I hope that as long as you are happy even i am not the reason. i will always feel happy and will always be there for you if you need me. i will always stay by your side so whenever anything happen i can be the first one to help you

Yesterday i tot you forgave me already because u replied me like some question then suddenly when i sent u 3 texted and you tot i was spamming so i guessed you are going to be angry on me again. sigh i wasted that opportunity again. i wonder when will my next chance come. i really miss you alot. but i know its impossible because i am not the guy that used to be the one for you already. :/ hais.

Feeling sad because you was not recovering fully yet still abit uncomfortable yet i can't do anything. Hope you will get well tomorrow you need sleep and rest more you always stay up late at night and do your hw not good for health :/ i miss you so much rest well girl..

Yesterday was worried about you because you are not feeling well and your finger is in pain i cant do anything :( just can only send a message and ask you to careful and takecare i wish i was there so that you wont be so careless. i only want to care for you as a friend. i just want to amend my mistake that i hurt you. i hope that you can forgive me again.

Sigh this is really very painful for me i can't moved on. everytime whenever i first on my hp or computer the first thing i will do is to see your twitter to see if anything is okay for you. its really hard for me to accept what things are now like. :( i miss you so much. but i doubt nothing is changeable now.. sorrow...

Today feeling so sorrow again. Last time and now so much different whenever i send u a msg you just reply me with k aww but nvm because i know that as long as you reply and see it i am okay with it. It makes me so hard to accept this sutuation right now. I can't let you go because my heart wont let me :/ i wanted so much to be with you but i dont know if i have the chance again hopefully i will. I wish i could have the courage to prove you that i am really sorry its only on the day when i see you again. I will cherish that chance.

This is the only place i can say what i am feeling right now. today was really a bad day for me everything changed. i really dont know how i am just feeling very afraid. why do people still have to break my heart even tho all i did was doing what i wanted. i know i am not a good talker but i tried everything to change but still i was getting cold msg and text do you know if someone put efforts on you and you reply those cold text its really painful. sigh.

Moody and sorrow again. I wish i could hide the feelings that i have but everytime i hide i will think of it. I want to be happy again as long as you are happy then i will feel happy. i always do things that i know i should not idk why sigh i just really wan to change myself. :/

Moody and sorrow yesterday i was thinking what could we have been doing if we were together will we last long will we always stay in love with each other will we be like this forever will we keep this moment like this ? If only this happens ~ i miss you so much